win/lose

i guess it's not really if you win or lose. it's that you're somehow in the game?

at this point, i've given up trying to figure out myself or anything else in this crazy world. the moment i think i've figured out some resemblance of a pattern, i realize that i don't know anything.

so i'm left lying here at 1am on a workday, with a half asleep furball lying next to me, purring to no end.