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Thursday, March 09, 2006

self realization

so this year hasn't been one of my greater years so far. obviously. if i were smarter, waking up with needling pain in your wrist on the 2nd day of the yr probably would've told me so. but i'm not that smart, so let's move on.

the year, with my inability to escape into golf, coupled with the awkward situation of a failing business, has taken a great toll on me.

mentally, i've never been this stressed. even in my sleep it haunts me. i've failed. sure, the monetary losses hurt, but more so, it's pride. it's a wake up call that i'm really not that capable. i aspire to do bigger things, but i can't even succeed in this small endeavour. it's a bad reflection of my being. to myself, to those around me. can i honestly say i gave it my all? i don't know.

with the failure of the business, i've become more obsessed with the sucess of others. why do they succeed and move forward, whilst i not only stand still, but even move backwards? am i destined to be the failed story of the bunch?

i can't let that happen. i won't.

but how?


Blogger Epic Dude said...

Chin up bro :) ...

"Most great people have attained their greatest success just one step beyond their greatest failure."
-Napoleon Hill

"Courage is going from failure to failure without losing enthusiasm."
-Winston Churchill

"The only real failure in life is the failure to try."

"One reason God created time was so that there would be a place to bury the failures of the past."

"Life's real failure is when you do not realize how close you were to success when you gave up."

"Success builds character, failure reveals it"
-Dave Checkett

March 09, 2006 1:44 PM

Blogger lb said...

AMEN, epic dude, AMEN! See Ed, that's why you keep us as your friends. You need some ray of sunshine in your life. =)

March 10, 2006 10:07 AM

Blogger geesmo said...

they say that when you've fallen down to darkest pits, until you can fall down no more, that's when you will rise with a vengeance. ok, there's no 'they'. i made that quote up.

still, i do hope that the sun will soon peek out from the dark clouds.

fuck, i am good. or have i heard that somewhere else?

honestly, i think good things will eventually happen to those who loves cats. :)

March 12, 2006 6:34 AM


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