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can't help but be disappointed by it. don't want to feel this way, but just can't help it. somehow, maybe mistakenly, i thought that i'd get the benefit of the doubt.

not anger, not bewilderment, not disbelief, just disappointment.

it just came out of no where and punched me in the face, then head butted me in the chest (hardy har har). maybe it was just unrealistic of me to think that way.

that’s all you think of me?